Confession

So You say You wanna know how I feel.
Well ill do my best to explain
I feel Held down, Like my life is passing without sound
I feel betrayed and so ashamed
Like Im wasting all my days.

And all these walls that Ive built up as some kind of protection
Only leave me stranded here with no sense of affection
All these things I hide behind these tired eyes
Its my life
Its my life

Do you know what its like to be a stranger in your loved ones eyes
Do you know what its like to build your dreams up high
just to watch em burn
Watch Em burn

And all these walls that Ive built up as some kind of protection
Only leave me stranded here with no sense of affection
All these things I hide behind these tired eyes
Its my life
Its my life
All the days pass one after another
lover to lover
suddenly the years have gone
And along with them I lose you
And all these walls that Ive built up as some kind of protection
Only leave me stranded here with no sense of affection
If only I could realize all these lies I hide behind
are only keeping me alone
That's My life
If only I could realize all these lies I hide behind
that's my life

Song written by Kyra O'Brien
Pictures from tumblr

Eye Candy

Breathe Deeply and know thyself.

Life is a constant evolution where is your base what solid ground do you stand apon?

Never before have I had such a need for stability and assurance. Yet I feel more solid than ever before. I think this is because in times of panic or chaos things become more clear. There is not the usual clutter of maybes instead you are left with cold hard truth. which can be and is for me a huge blessing. Instead of living in question whether circumstances are too goood to be true you know without dount the situation at hand. and can than decide how to combat it.

Remeber that what can feel like pain and useless suffering may be just the birthpains of a beautiful new life.

its all in

THE EYE OF THE BEHOLDER

The Things I Believe In

Let the Sound Take you away

~Steppenwolf

Follow your bliss and the universe will open doors where there were only walls

~Joseph Campbell

When you Have seen beyond Yourself, Then you may find peace of mind is waiting there

~George Harrison

Beauty is all around us,

Breath

by J. Daniel Beaudry

Tree, gather up my thoughts
like the clouds in your branches.
Draw up my soul
like the waters in your root.

In the arteries of your trunk
bring me together.
Through your leaves
breathe out the sky.

Trees are so beautiful so mysterious and so misused. Like most everything on our planet, So lets do somthing about it learn the basics or reforestation, organic farming, and straight up green living!

10 tips to prevent deforestation!

1) Look at the ingredients of cereals, cereal bars and other products you buy and don’t buy products with palm oil in unless it is sustainably produced.

2) Do not buy timber products from tropical hardwoods buy timber products that have been grown sustainably in carefully managed forests.

3) Buy tea and coffee that is grown sustainably and do not buy these products if grown on cleared rain forest. Think before you drink.

4) Do not buy soil grown on cleared rain forests.

5) Do not buy meat grown on cleared rain forests.

6) Do not buy products from large commercial companies which are involved in clearing rainforests for cattle ranching.

7) Join Our Future Planet and contribute to discussions on how to save the rain forests.

8) Join an organization that plays an active role in rain forest conservation such as Friends of the Earth, Greenpeace and Worldwide Fund for Nature.

9) Write to your Prime Minister or president urging him or her to fund rain forest conservation and not to use taxes to fund destructive projects.

10) Organize support for rain forests through youth groups, political parties and conservation organizations.

Here are the ten countries with the worst Deforestation

Country	(SQ MILES)
Brazil	8,915
Indonesia	5,065
Sudan	3,702
Zambia	3,286
Mexico	2,436
Dem. Rep. of Congo	2,054
Myanmar	1,996
Nigeria	1,537
Zimbabwe	1,235
Argentina	1,100

Start Again

Whats Going on these Days, What are your plans for tomorrow. They say dreaming never pays, Cause I cant live a life that's borrowed.

Its Hard To lose, Impossible to Forget. You Dream about the "Use to be" Wish that it still was.

The Time I had is gone, I held my breath to long The chance I thought I had was never really mine. Please Dont look at my eyes cause than you'll see my lies and all I use to be just never came true.
Whoever said Love was Blind I'll trade your heart for mine, We will spend a day than quote how we feelHow Can i find the positive of situations When all it seems to bring is confusion.
How can i train myself to become more productive and powerful,
Instead of looking at the mess you are in and becoming overwhelmed by it, trace your steps back to where things first went wrong and start again.
You may have to this hundred of times in your life but you will always be better for it.

Still Dont know what Love means

"Better never to have met you in my dream than to wake and reach for hands that are not there"- Otomo No Yakamochi.Ever has it been that love knows not its own depth until the hour of separation.

There is love of course. And then there's life, its enemy-Jean Anouilh

Who am I to tell her
Who am I to play god
I don't know just what's for real anymore

I lost all of my vanity
When I peered into the pool
I lost all of my innocence
When I fell in love with you
I never knew a man fall so far until I landed here
Where all of my wounds turn into gold when I kissed your hair

I'll lay down this bottle of wine
If you'll just be kind to me
Ask her why she cries so loud
She Will not say a word
Eyes like ice and hands that shake
She takes what she deserves
To celebrate her emptiness
In a Cold and lonely room
Sweep the floor with your long flowered dress
If you cannot find a broom

No matter how sure of love i feel
There is doubt in my heart and than its just me, holding my breath waiting for it to end.

Time is making a fool of us

"There are two kinds of secrets, those we keep from others and those we hide even from ourselves"



"In periods of rapid personal change, we pass through life as though we are spell cast. we speak in sentences that end before finishing. we sleep heavily because we need to ask so many questions as we dream alone. we bump into others and feel bashful at recognizing souls so similar to ourselves"

“Have your adventures, make your mistakes, and choose your friends poorly — all these make for great stories.” -Chuck PalahniukTime passes and reflection comes more steadily, looking at past ideas,mistakes, and decisions. everything becomes more focused like a camera lends turned to the right degree. It is both a painful and gratifying experience. all i can hope is to not take this learning for grant it. the typical twentysomthing feelings have set in.

Real Living

If there is one thing I have learned its that life is truly too short, For Games, For Distrust, For Regrets. We have been given a incredibly valuable gift to live, to love, to learn. The world itself is our classroom and all those around us are learning just like us. What this means to me is that life must be treated as the rareity that it is. Seizing life instead of letting our days pass in front of our eyes like worthless leaves passing in the autumn wind. To take the days we are given and love them by loving ourselves, By loving the God that made us, and By loving those around us. I know I am often guilty of assuming others dont experience the same feeling that I have, fear, regret, guilt, insecurities, self hatred. Realize that Christ said "Love others as yourself" because we are much more like one another than we care to admit, We can understand one another more than we care to see. If we could begin each day bringing our world closer together and showing those that have never seen true love, What it means to be loved. That is Living

"The greatness of a man is not in how much wealth he acquires, but in his integrity and his ability to affect those around him positively"
-Bob Marley

Being unwanted, unloved, uncared for, forgotten by everybody, I think that is a much greater hunger, a much greater poverty than the person who has nothing to eat. -Mother Teresa

Do not think that love, in order to be genuine, has to be extraordinary. What we need is to love without getting tired-Mother Teresa

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Encased In Truth

This weekend the city of Memphis was covered in ice, not the best road conditions but the scenery was breathtaking. As I walked around my neighborhood awed by this kingdom of ice, I thought over what I have been learning.

I recently moved from Milwaukee W.I Down to Memphis TN this has been both exciting and terrifying. regardless it has been a huge growing experience. So as I walked past the trees completely encased in ice I began to think over my life specifically the past three years since my graduation from High School.
The single clearest lesson I have learned through my trials, errors, successes and failures is that what surrounds me is what I become. to coin a phrase "you are what you eat" through life experience and at twenty I have had a small yet flavorful taste. Its easy to see that if I want to be a useful encouraging person I have to seek out useful encouraging people, activities and places. while like anyone I enjoy a party and a drink from time to time I no longer want that to dominate my life. I don't receive anything long lasting from those nights and mostly laugh when remembering how important I once held those days. I leave you with words from a man who can articulate my feelings more eloquently than I. Mr. Ralph waldo Emerson “For everything you have missed, you have gained something else, and for everything you gain, you lose something else.” So I encourage you to seek truth and to be sure that what you hold high and esteemed whether its a person or just a feeling deserves that place in your life and the time and passion it is given. This life is short live one of substance.

What is Beauty

Websters Dictionary Defines Beauty as " The qualities that give pleasure to the senses". I could not Agree more for the beauty of something depends only on the senses viewing said object,person,landscape,dream,relationship,etc. I often Look at something that could be described as unattractive or even ugly but when I see past the usual and down into the very nature of it. transformation occurs, I invite you to look with me. You may be surprised by what you see.